I don't want you, but I need you.

It's so early in the morning.  I just stepped out onto my front balcony, only to scurry back in from the terrifying cold.  Sometimes, I want to kick myself for moving to a place that has colder winters than Minneapolis.  I absolutely despise it when my spin tenses up, my teeth chatter, my nose hairs freeze and I am bundled up to no end.  Where is my next destination?  I have considered asking my mother if I could possibly stay with her, and then find a place in Arizona.  I don't particularly like the idea of Arizona, but I do really like to entertain the idea of warmth.  I wouldn't mind sweating in the winter.

Yesterday, I woke up really early and crashed before noon.  I wanted to stay up so badly, but my body just didn't allow it.  It is very tempting to lay on that pillow, but I think I will head over to Boystown to this little cafe to drink coffee, eat food and read for a bit.  I wish the library was open earlier.  

I had my 30 day review at my new job a week ago.  I felt like it went quite well, and they told me that I was doing an exceptional job.  I think I am starting to get the hang of making coffee drinks, and I also think I am starting to get the hang of controlling my anger towards rich fucks. I have been doing better lately, about a couple of sticky situations that were getting me down.  I met a boy in Kalamazoo who broke my heart.  I liked a guy who liked my roommate.  Chicago has been a lonely little city, and I do fear that everyone will hibernate without me.  Although, I've been a bit of recluse anyway.  

I will be going back a couple of times around the holidays.  Blaine has decided to have a friend's holiday gathering, Anne Frank themed.  I guess I have been designated as Anne Frank, and I am supposed to buy a witch nose down at the store for the full effect.  Haha, Blaine is so offensive.

I have been very perplexed by anthropology lately.  I've been reading more about it, and getting really really into it.  It is the first thing that has grabbed me since moving away from home.  Something that is on my mind a lot, and hopefully I can do something with it in the future.  

I took some weird pictures.